Jesse, welcome to Medium, and thank you for such an honest and raw contribution. I read this because you responded to a comment of mine on a comment of yours about Ukraine. Before responding I wanted to find out a bit about you. Glad I did. It has helped me to see you as a person not an opinion! That is always a risk on Medium or other thought-sharing platforms.

You might enjoy connecting with a good friend of mine, George Hoffmann, who wrote a book called "Practicing Mental Illness." Here's a recent post of his, called "Survivors of Suicide" (Ghandi and MLKJ!).

(https://practicingmentalillness.substack.com/p/survivors-of-suicide?utm_source=substack&utm_medium=email&utm_content=share&token=eyJ1c2VyX2lkIjoxNzkxODgzMCwiXyI6InZJWUszIiwiaWF0IjoxNjUxNTg4MDgyLCJleHAiOjE2NTE1OTE2ODIsImlzcyI6InB1Yi04OTk5NCIsInN1YiI6InBvc3QtcmVhY3Rpb24ifQ.lrmbvQiU6M1DeZG7Pbe0zZhjgWvWYqnxjp8b1r_gAhw&s=r

I wish you well on Medium, and with your life.

Tim