Doro, I so admire how you just put yourself right out there on Medium. Your honesty is beautiful to read, even when what you have to say is painful.
Have you watched the US miniseries “Dispatches from Elsewhere?” I thought the show did a great job with a character who was trans - but the show was not about that. Her budding romance with the lead character was I thought very true to life - including the vulnerability she faced every time she walked down a street in public.